Dear Mike, yours was a beautiful, fragile life. I am so privileged to have known you and spent time together, whether it was going to gigs, laughing at your impersonations, talking politics or rummaging around in your garage. I so much hope you appreciated what a unique and wonderful person you were. I can’t put in words how much I will miss you, Mike. Thanks for being an unforgettable friend and brother in law.
Mike's kindness is the one thing I will always remember. Always asking questions, always interested...he was a good man and will be greatly missed. x
Darling Mike, you were so loving and so beloved. You brought so much joy and happiness and you were so kind and such fun. How I wish you could have stayed with us longer. Thank you for your beautiful life, it was extraordinary.
Dearest Mike, kindest and most thoughtful friend and cousin, I can't express how much I'll miss you and how sad I am that you've gone. Soul-mate of my early childhood and kind and loving friend in adulthood. You fought a courageous battle and taught us all so much along the way. It was always a joy to see you and spend time with you and I wish we'd had more time. I'll miss your humour, your wry observations, your wit and your love-filled hugs. I hope you've found the peace and happiness you deserve x
My dearest Mikecito, you was the most wonderful and kind man I met. You was more than my brother-in-law, you was my best friend and brother for me. I still remember your advices and how funny you used to be with us. You was just great! And a very good salsa dancer. I will keep all the lovely memories that we spent together. You will always be in my heart. You are not die for me. I love you so much my Mikecito!
Mikey, my big brother and protective shield. I can't believe you're gone and I'm not sure I ever will believe it. I really wish I'd had the chance to say goodbye. Thank you for always being there when I was scared, for making me laugh when times were bleak, for never judging, for sharing your quest for understanding that made it easier for us all to understand. People talk about your compassion, your kindness, your gentleness. Yes, all of that. I wish that you could have seen, believed and held onto all that we could see in you. You talked about your poetry not being located enough, so here are some locations for you: your bedroom (later my bedroom) with your sludge green sleeping bag and myriad of tropical fish, playing slug with your little sisters. Thank you for your patience. Your tent at Cousin's Camp, skinny like you, with your guitar and Clint, and bacon. You really were the world's worst vegan. A bench in a pub in Portobello just two weeks ago, where I cried and you put your arm around me and whispered "It's okay Meddy, it's only football," and made me laugh. I love you, I always will. Enjoy the stars big brother.
Mike -- love ya man ...lost one of my oldest and best friends. I keep thinking of the times we spent together, joking, laughing, making films -- Zombie Nosh haha best zombie nurse ever. The film we made of your poem - what I do to me (that one wound up an audience member so bad ...she shouted at me) It was worth it. I could share ideas with you in the early days. Ambitions, hopes, dreams. You encouraged me to chase them, make things and I did the same for you. I saw your first poetry gigs. Watched your confidence grow. You went on to own the stage when you performed. Block out the voices of doubt. I was proud of that. We'd talk about anything and nothing was off topic. You could be fearless with your honesty. You were very much a person I could confide in and someone I trusted. It was mutual. Gonna miss you. It was a lot of fun
Gone far too soon.
I remember how you were always so willing to teach. Nursing was at your core and it showed in the way that you were always so patient with me as a student nurse. Somehow you could make the most complicated task uncomplicated by just taking the time to explain.
And for this
I THANK YOU....
We became friends at work & soon socially & I felt a depth of understanding & compassion from you that I had never experienced before . You were one of the very special people that it is rare to meet and I am so grateful that we became friends even though it was cut short . I hope you find peace now amongst the stars as I know you will be shining brightly there just as you did when you were with us all . I will always keep your wonderful memories & kind , wise words close to my heart , love Rachel x
My dearest Mike, my heart is heavy with grief as I think about you. I think about your voice, songs, poetry, nursing work, your studying, your family, friends, politics, tortoise, musical instruments, your flat cap, hairy back, food intolerance, your passionate advice, compassion...the plectrums in my drawer that are the final part of your 50th birthday present that I’d forgotten to give you. What will we do without you? One heavy night in 2017 we openly discussed suicide but lightly talked about what a great gig will be happening up in heaven with the loss in music of 2016. I now imagine you up there as a star with all the others. Shine bright my friend & be forever in peace. Much love from “Tonia Thorne” (you had a certain fun way to say my name)...I will always miss you mate xxx
Mike I can't believe it. I know I didn't see you very often and I'm sorry for that. I wish I could have helped you, the way you always helped me. You always gave me sound advice and you were always the best listener.
I was thinking about you only this week, I saw a program about Albania, and I thought about our exciting trip there. All the raki and Kalashnikovs!
I will miss you my friend
Thank you Mike for being such a wounderful teacher when I was a newly qualified nurse. You had time to ensure I understood everything and I was so willing for me to use you for practice when I was training to take bloods!!. Thank you for being such a wounderful mentor xxx
Your loss has made such a massive impact on all your colleagues at the hospital. You were so highly regarded and respected. We are so deeply shocked and saddened by the loss of such a kind and thoughtful man who would always put others before yourself. You were an excellent lead practitioner and educator, and will be sorely missed by us all. My deepest condolences to the family. Such a beautiful, talented man, such a loss.
I have known you Mike for 14 yrs when you started as a junior nurse on Ifor Ward at the Whittington Hosp. You were kind and caring and always made the extra effort to teach fellow colleagues and junior staff. You hated night shifts and as the night progressed You would get paler and paler. I would tease yoo that uou looked like the monk from the Davinci Code. Some years later one Halloween I had a house party and there was a knock on the window and there were dressed in a monks habit and a painted white face, you had never forgot. You became a great work colleague and an even greater friend. When my daughter Talia started drum lessons uou bought her drum sticks and she still uses them. The last time I seen you was a few weeks ago and he walked me home and I knew you were sad then. The last message I got from you was on Sunday past and although very short I will treasure that message forever. I will miss you so much Mike but the memories and the laughs we had I will treasure forever💙💙
Michael, devastated!! I can’t quite believe it! After knowing you all those years ago at College in Manchester & going to loads of concerts.( REM & The Icicle Works spring to mind) especially The Icicle Works!. I was delighted the past year to be back in touch along with Bob , & loved our night out earlier this year, & was looking forward to many more.. We used to chat loads about how we both could adapt to the ‘Scally Football Lads’ & The ‘ Arty Music types’,we could embrace all cultures!.so many great memories, Morton’s windows,your brown suede jacket , trip to Sunderland, & more recently your personal rendition of ‘RIO’ last time we met! I hope you find PEACE & Love Ya!x
Oh Mike. I have wept today, hearing this news. And I'm glad for the tears. I can hear your gentle and thoughtful voice. You were the greatest supporter and encourager. And I believed in it coming from you. Your going makes me realise that life is too short to offer anything less to each other.
Didn't know Mike "well" as such but from the brief encounters that I had with him always came across as a genuinely lovely guy. Am very shocked and saddened to have heard this from another friend who knew him well...a real shame... My thoughts go out to his family who must be devastated. Very sorry to hear this. Romilla
This has come as such a huge shock to us all at The Royal Free, It is so tragic & I am so sad to think that Mike was going through such a terrible time and we did not know. Mike & I had worked closely together for the last 2 & a half years, he always made time to listen to me having a moan but was always able to turn a negative into a positive and make me see things from a different perspective. I’m sorry that I never told him how much I had learned from him because there was so much! His passing is such a loss & I hope that as part of his team we can continue some of his amazing work that he cared so passionately about. I hope that he has found true peace xx
Dear Mike-you were such a talented and caring nurse, so creative with your music, poetry and spoken word. You were such good company with all age groups and had such empathy and understanding. Alastair loved your passion for topics close to your heart. You will be greatly missed dear cousin. Shine down on us from the stars and be at peace. ⭐️
Mike you will be missed, such a clever and respected man, you were a support and a listening ear to me when I struggled with the new role, I only wish I could have returned the support x I hope you have found peace and are no longer in any pain, all your colleagues have been left deeply shocked but you will be remembered for the work you did and what you tried to achieve for the team xxx
To Mike's family, thank you so much for bringing this tribute together. That Silver Surfer quote really moved me a lot. I am in disbelief at this news.
Mike, you were so energetic (never thought I'd say that) in moving your music and work forward. You did your best to take care of and better yourself and you had good people around you. I guess it's not just the lonely and isolated who go this way.
I have the recordings we made for Starmaker and Nothing's Going to Stop us, which we were going to finish together. You have made me ever more sure about my music and work in mental health.
All you wanted to do was help me. You looked for work for me in London, you told me about music I should listen to, you found new gluten free eating and drinking opportunities, you listened and we travelled to places I never would have gone to if it wasn't for your bravery and inspiration. I will always live with your inspiration.
I am deeply saddened to hear of this news. Thank you for being such a great nurse and Practice Development Nurse. You were always so calm ,professional and extremely knowledgeable. Thank you for being such an inspiration during my nurse training days and thank you for all the memories. X
So saddened for the loss of a great educator. He saw my potential a d pointed me in the right direction. His loss will be felt by all the nurses and patients he helped. He always had time for everyone, giving praise when it was due and putting a positive spin on things. A great loss. At peace now.
Mike, I’m sorry you were in such pain, I hope you have found relief now. You were an inspiration to me in my role as nurse educator and I valued our clinical supervision and the knowledge you shared. You were a brilliant leader in the nursing community and it’s a lesser place without you. As well as your professional friendship you also showed such warmth and caring on a personal level, so considerate and thoughtful. You will be hugely missed, a truly good man. Rest easy now x
Mike you were so loved by so many, and will be so missed. I always felt that one of the few bright slots in the difficult year our son lived at the Whittington was your presence. You weren’t one of his main nurses but I soon learned to come to you with my concerns and stress, because your empathy and manner were always so exactly what I needed. You were kind, compassionate, intelligent - perfect for the nursing career you chose. It’s a great tragedy that the many of us you helped weren’t able to help you in return.
Much love to you, and your grieving family, friends and colleagues, Carol, Elliott, Noah and Maya
Mike, you were such a huge part of my memories of Ifor. Always time for others, a gentle soul that delved deep into people and challenged them to be better.
Always searching for thoughts of your poetry and music and so thankful for any comments and advice on it.
I’ll miss your slow but sure smile that despite not having seen you for a year or too comes so readily to my memory.
Thoughts are with all your many family and friends. X
Scorsese, Fyodor, City Lights Bookstore - my chaperone through sixth-form angst. Liverpool salad-days; outdoor raves. Peaceful slumber old friend.
Mike you have been part of my nursing career from the beginning. 13 years you supported me through my fear of medications to my fear of maths to my fear of flying on my own and becoming a senior nurse.
You also curbed my behaviour as I was a little cow as a junior nurse.
You were a wonderful teacher a wonderful nurse and a brilliant human. I wish you saw yourself from our eyes. I wish you were able to feel the happiness you brought when you helped somone make sense of a problem.
Over the last year I found it fondly irritating when you would just come to our office and call me by my pet name...'adamski' or recall a embarrassing event from years ago which was usually funny at my expense.
I didn't appreciate our history or our journey from Ifor ward to the royal free.
I do now
My heart breaks
Mike, it's been a real pleasure knowing you! I met you about 2 years ago at The Preservation Room in London and we kept in touch to play songs and playing events together.
I loved your energy, your compassion and talent !! You were passionate about everything you did and always looking forward to develop your projects and care for different causes.
You were very friendly and helped me lifting my heavy instrument during each event ! You gave me support whenever I had doubts in what I was playing on the harp.
I am very happy we shared these moments and arranged your beautiful songs together !
Me and Peter will be missing you deeply...You made for sure a difference to all the people you knew. To all the people that surrounded you.
Lots of love,
Mike - I can't really believe this has happened but I can kind of understand how your illness got the better of you, maybe. It has been a real honour knowing you and I will greatly miss our talks, laughs and shared values in this sea of insanity. You better have found your peace now and no more Auld Anger. Love you. RIP. Roddy
Oh Mike, I just can’t get my head round this.
You were the first person I met at the Whittington. You gave me my job, you had faith in me and encouraged me to go further. You taught me how to teach and I’ll always be grateful to you.
I saw you two weeks ago and didn’t say goodbye properly because I was in a hurry, I will always regret this.
I’m sorry you were in such pain for so long, I know you would have tried so hard to beat this and I hope you are at peace now.
Thank you for your interesting conversations, you calm approachable nature on the ward, and for getting two computer screens on our desk.
Rest well now. Xx
A gentle man & someone who always made me feel calm . Such a sad end for someone who gave so much. Wishing you the calmness you gave to so many xx
Thank you Mike you were inspirational and always thinking of making things better. Very shocked.
Mike, I will always remember your calm voice and your warm smile. May your kind soul be at peace xx
My dearest Loving Michael,
It’s indescribable the pain in my heart to express when I received such a terrible news. I just wished at the moment I was there with you.
Your unique kindness, love and humbleness brought many people to love you. This is one of the biggest reasons my father Lorenzo is deeply proud of you, he always describe you in the way, he is so proud of your great success and achievements you have done in life regardless difficulties you needed to face. Your heart was always ready to support people in a unique way. Your family, nieces and nephews was always as priority in your diary.
I wouldn’t come so far in life if you didn’t brought me from Peru-Trujillo. You didn’t only give me the best 10 years of my life but also a great beautiful family, nieces and nephews were I am going be thankful for the rest of my life.
Your colérita, gatita, chiwis.
Love you for ever xxx
Mike, you were such a kind and caring brother in law to me and could always be relied upon to bring a sense of fun to every occasion. You had such an interesting life; from music and studying, canvassing and style to our beloved NHS, you always had a passionate take on things and I will miss our chats. I was in awe of how much love you had to give, especially to all your nieces and nephews. You were a real advocate for self-improvement and made ‘the grateful game’ a regular feature in our home. If I could play this one more time with you, I would share how grateful I am to have had you in my life; you showed me the importance of kindness and compassion and inspired me to make a difference.
I wish you peace x
Mike I met you in 2004 at an interview for a staff nurse post when you chose to join the Ifor family at the Whittington, and how lucky it was for us. You soon progressed and had a passion and talent for helping others learn , sharing your skills and knowledge to help them become better nurses and benefit the children. You selflessly shared your nursing skills and had immense patience when people struggled to grasp something. But you never gave up on them, as so many do, but you tried different learning methods until they 'got it'. You were always so enthusiastic and embraced new ideas and concepts. You worked so hard clinically and on top of this you studied and graduated with your MSc, and wrote books and published national campaigns for the NHS like 'compassion in care', and the list goes on .....- you were incredible and we are so lucky to have the legacy that you have left for us.
You also became a dear friend. I enjoyed seeing you perform your poetry at an open mic session in Holloway.
You are a very special person, even 14 years later we would exchange messages and kept in touch after I left London.
The world is a better place for your presence, but sadly taken from us far too soon. They don't make many Mike's in this world. Be at peace and shine bright on us x
Mike you were one of my oldest and closest friends. From bonding at College over a love of Iggy Pop, The Doors, The Chameleons, The Stone Roses and 60s counter culture you turned me onto so many writers, bands and films. You had a real passion for culture and had a great sense of humour. we were always laughing (except when we were drowning each others sorrows and broken hearts!). The Roses were just on the radio and it reminded me of Jamming with your brother and friends in your outhouse. We ended up as students in Liverpool together, went to our first rave together and you put on my first night in Manchester at the pub you were working in. You were writing poetry even back then.
We clicked on so many levels, your wide interests in so many topics meant we'd talk for hours. After drifting apart for a few years I was so pleased when our worlds collided again and we took off where we left off meeting up when I was in London or you were in Manchester. You had a real sense of Social justice, and you were so talented, song writing, recording, singing, performing and writing poetry and promoting nights as well as being a compassionate children's nurse.
It was only two months ago I spent a fantastic weekend with you for your 50th, just hanging out together, gallery trips, meals and meeting up with your family who I had not seen for years.. You were playing me your new songs and were about to go to New York where you were doing open mike nights. We were making plans, talking about the future, doing some music, travelling and having more weekends with Peeg coming down. I'm so sad we won't get to do that now. I wish I could have been there for you, but you were in Edinburgh when I came to London in July so we shared messages.
I'm pleased I had you as a friend, we shared some great times. You were loved and respected by lots of people Mike. You really will be missed. Love you man. xx
I was shocked and saddened, having known Mike for about 5 years after he studied for his MA at Middlesex. You had so much going on, it was really difficult, yet you produced the most amazing high standards of work, so much so you came back to teach others. A natural leader and such a talented poet, singer, songwriter, loved, loved your work. Above all, an authentic, kind person. God bless your family and all those who loved you, for such a terrible loss. Xxx
I remember my first shift on Ifor as a student nurse, it was a night shift and you was in charge, your first words to me was 'who did you annoy to get a night on your first day'! You went from being my mentor to being my friend. You have taught me so much over the years and we have had so many laughs, mainly when you was trying to impersonate my accent. I will miss you so much and I am so pleased to have had you in my life.
Forever a Ifor Nurse and part of our team xxx
Mikmak... I feel we grew up together on Ifor Ward as colleagues and friends. 11 years of happy and sad memories; two complete opposites; you with your never ending calmness and patience and me with my whirlwind like demeanour and impatience. Thank you for your friendship and camaraderie; I will treasure our laughs and heart to hearts as well as our little arguments that seemed unavoidable.
I’ve been thinking what to write here so I started rediscovering your first book “voice” ...
dull aches and sore eyes
Pure and simple rest.
A cool breeze in bullying heat,
a picture of heaven,
An abcense if need.
Mikmak I’m sorry that you are not here anymore and I wish you peace.
I saw you few weeks ago on Ifor after your study day; the ward was busy as always and you were passing by and gave me the best hug with your perfect deep smile. I promised again to catch up with you in Hampstead after work one day... I’m so sorry that you’re gone and I will miss you so very much. Thank you for your amazingness; my thoughts are with your family. ❤️
I didn’t know him well, but through the time spent talking to him as a regular customer at my workplace I really respected his open-mindedness and genuinety. He was so polite and friendly and we always had a good laugh when he came in for a coffee.
Rest In Peace Mikey.
We bonded over Sabbath, you loved hanging out at our shop An getting your cookie fix, An we loved your company. You were a friend of the cookie crew, not a customer.
Rest In Power
Mikey Boy. We were supposed to be meeting up soon to celebrate both our 50ths and 30 years of amazing friendship. I was about to send you some ideas. Hooking up at your funeral was NOT part of the plan. I sent you the originals of those photos of you (with hair) at Sunderland bus station. You were going to send them back once copied. I keep checking my letterbox to see if they are there - along with an explanation. We have wandered around on the periphery of each others lives for so long. You have always been there for me. And I, like many others, wish you still were. I will cherish above all our more recent London nights out, galleries, food, drink and talking, always talking. They were special. You were authentic. You had integrity. I adored you. Sleep well xx
So many memories have been passing through my mind over the last week or so. Memories of our time on Ifor ward and how I was lucky enough to not only have you as a brilliant colleague for a number of years but to also be able to call you my friend. You were a brilliant nurse - kind, compassionate and a great teacher. You were also lots of fun! I’ve been thinking back and reflecting on the fun times we had during night shifts when you would make up songs for us and keep everyone entertained by singing the hours away. Then there’s the many nights out and long chats we’d have as you opened up about life. You were a fabulous friend. Always there for everyone, with kind words, warm hugs and a cheeky smile. I’ll treasure the wise thoughts you would pass on and the lovely letters you’d send. I count myself lucky to have seen you perform and sing. I wish you could have seen your talent through our eyes. I’m sorry we weren’t able to help you more or understand the pain you were in. Rest in peace. Meado x
Mike, It's with a heavy heart that I write these words. You were loved and appreciated by so many. A gentle, thoughtful and deeply caring soul. After Birmingham our lives moved apart but we did check in from time to time and we followed your poetry and your musical adventures. We are lucky to have known you Mike and we hope that whatever exists after this earthly life, it has brought you peace. Our thoughts are with your family, closest friends and colleagues. L xxxx
Dearest wonderful Mike,
What a impact you have left on the lives of so many of us & me. Those I know...where we shared inspirational times devising trailblazing exciting wellbeing for staff & patients at Whittington. The Compassionate Conference happened because of you, it got an award because of, nurses were impacted by such kindness that you have. Your gentle, thoughtful, insightful ness made so many of us draw to you. And we never lost contact . Your poetry inspired & moved both me & my daughter who’s been in a dark cloud.Your songwriting inspired my son as I couldn’t keep it to myself. What a beautiful man & beautiful spirit you are....go inspire many more forever xxx
You were my colleague (on a different ward) at the Royal Free Hospital and I did not really get to know you, which I now regret so much...
I can see from all the comments on this site that you were a wonderful person - a very sensitive, gifted, kind and very intelligent man. I would have loved to get to know you, Mike. You are a real and huge loss to this world. The world needs people like you but they seem to be so rare...
I am so grateful to have had you as my first Mentor on my journey into nursing. You were so kind, knowledgeable and caring, and such a fantastic role model. In the few years we worked together I would have never guessed that you were suffering in any way, as you always struck me as a positive and upbeat person, keeping busy both professionally and personally.
I am so sad that you were hurting.
I am so sorry that you were hurting.
Thanks for everything you taught me and countless other nurses.
You were one of my first contacts at the Whitt... we shared an office however fleetingly. You struck a chord with your kindness and open approach to anyone who may have needed your support. I’m so very sorry to learn you were in so much pain... none of us are beyond reaching or crossing the line you crossed to feel free. You will be missed by everyone, remembered fondly by everyone. Rest in peace Mike...
I remember the first time I met you nearly twenty years ago. I had heard so much about you- your talents, your humour, your kindness. Over the following years I of course found all of that to be true.
I also found a kindred spirit, someone to talk to in the small hours; someone with empathy, insight and compassion
I know your gentle soul has touched the lives of many ; family of course, friends,
colleagues, patients too. In fact, everyone you met. Your humility and grace means you
will never fully appreciate the significant impact you had on those who were fortunate to know you . You were there on one of my darkest days. A grim night amongst many ,when your brother and I were simply worn down by grief and unable to comfort each each other . You came without question. Stayed up virtually all night with us,just talking, sitting next to me on my bed as I cried, nodding, listening , occasionally joking. You will never know how your very presence saved me that night. Enabled me to get up and face another day, to make the decision we had to make.
You were there too at another pivotal moment in my life . Of all the hospitals in London,my daughter Isabella, overcome by her own demons one night, found herself in yours.On your ward , on your shift.
There could have been no one better to help her.
My abiding memory of you is seeing you through an open door into a hospital room the next day, sitting on the edge of the bed , cradling a poorly baby in your arms, trying to get her to feed.
Despite not having seen you for the years in between , that warmth, care, devotion and compassion resonates with me still. You embody all that is good in humankind; I am therefore all the more shattered that life was not kinder to you, that you had to endure so much suffering and pain.
Your life has not been in vain though, it will endure in the hearts, minds and memories of all those who were privileged
to have known you.
‘Til we meet again Mike, know that mine , like many others, has been a better life for having had you in it.
Our sweet, gentle friend. I still can’t believe it. It doesn’t seem real.
You were kind. When Ceri and I got married you were away in New Zealand. You wrote a poem for our wedding service so you’d be there with us. Bringing a jumper and booties back from South America when Lili was born. Then little things, like taking a photo of me watching my brother Danny playing a gig, then sending me the photo. Little things, but of more consequence now.
You were an artist, an authentic voice as a poet and songwriter. You supported other people’s art too. You came to see stuff I’d done and talking about it afterwards made me think in new ways.
I’ll miss your sense of humour and your laugh, talking about music and politics, always looking for change to make things better. It seems appropriate you were born in '68.
In recent years, we always said when we saw each other - you in London, me in Birmingham - that we should get together more often. I’m glad of the times we did but wish it had been more often.
Miss you, Mike.
Love Laurence, Ceri, Lili and Tallulah xx
To a dear friend who I will sadly miss, in 2008 I started on Ifor ward and was introduced to you as my mentor you guided ,supported me and reassured me that the day would come when I would feel confident enough to guide others. You were right Mike I went on to be that person you believed in that I thank you for.No one knows what anyone is feeling,I wish I had but if it were that easy we wouldn’t suffer such personal heartache,I will keep you in my prayers that now you have found the peace our minds so deserve rest in peace love and hugs rest in peace to a friend I’ll never forget xxxx
Mike, you were such an amazing mentor to me when I started on the ward. I was so nervous but you made me feel so supported and reasssured me so much. You will always be up there for me as a nurse I inspire to be like. I hope you find the peace that you deserve. X
Mike, whatever I was doing or whatever I was talking about, you made me feel like it was important and worthwhile. I’m so pleased that I got to spend time with someone who reminded me of the need to do more good in the world, and who brought so much happiness into the lives of those around him.
Thank you x
It's practically a lifetime ago since I saw Mike but it still feels like a kick in the guts to lose one of the genuinely "good guys", and there were few better than Mike. My memories echo the sentiments in his obituary; smart, sharp, witty, occasionally caustic (weren't we all) but kind, thoughtful & sensitive, a rarity for a Middleton boy! My sincere condolences to all the family, he lives on in happy memories.
I'm so sad to hear this news. We didn't know each other well and hadn't seen each other in a long time but I always really enjoyed your company. I was always so struck by the space you made for others - that kindness to really listen and care - and really valued those interactions we had.
I was thinking about you just the other day actually as I walked over North Bridge in Edinburgh and remembered bumping into you there a couple of years ago. Around this time - we were both up for the festival. I remembered the double take we both did - out of context - and then the genuine surprised pleasure we both had at meeting like that.
And though we didn't know each other well, that goodness and kindness that shone out of you is what I thought of when I remembered that moment.
Thank you and rest in peace Michael x
Thank you for setting up this page. I worked with Mike on Ifor ward over 10 years ago at the Whittington and we remained in touch. He was receptive to my sense of humour and we sparked off each other.
We discussed politics, religion, ward politics and the travails of life. He was wonderful company.
I’m very sad to think he was suffering and that he’s gone.
May his dear soul rest in peace.
Dear Mike, In shock to see that your gone, I havnt been back to Whittington Ifor ward since leaving in 2008 but you are someone I will never forget. your were a wonderful mentor, teacher, if it was not for you I wouldn't have felt confident doing my IV training and all those maths questions. you were always so warm and from the messages from everyone here you touched so many peoples lives I pray you are at peace now xx
The ease with which it is to feel worthless if you have before is terrifying:
The night had finished and I was helping to put the furniture back, as I did I noticed an empty can that a customer (perhaps a ‘guest’ of mine as I was running the night) had left behind:
“Disgusting! Scum!” I shouted and placed the can dramatically on the counter.
As I moved the chair where the can had been I noticed a small bottle:
“OUTRAGEOUS! Sauvignon Blanc SCUM!” I yelled as I placed the on the counter. The bartender agreed (quietly) and carried on serving
“No one actually likes him…” One customer said to their friend.
It stuck in my head.
This was Tuesday, midnight.
Last night: Thursday evening I recorded…
“Nobody like you, nobody cares. Nobody like you, nobody cares. Nobody cares if you live or die… So… I’ve been affected by… a suicide, recently, a friend of mine and that’s how easy the depression started, I was obviously thinking about it, tidying some of my mess and I heard someone say “No-one likes him you know.” as I’d done something loud and obnoxious… so I’ve been feeling very low and Michael’s death has accentuated the depressive side of me and that’s how easy it is that that little rhythm came into my head 2, 3, 2 days after um hearing “nobody likes him you know’ and then nobody and it’s just..easy for the depression to get hold of you and take you down the path of no return…but…I did it (I do things in front of my wife that I don’t do in front of other people) and I did it out loud so, the connection of love and saying something like that in front of her even in jest or even as part of a pretend song made me realise that if I’d been alone or if I’d been drunk then I’d have followed that path, so I just wanted to record that feeling to share to I dunno, help someone maybe, know you’re loved, knowing that you’re loved, accepting the love is difficult…and you don’t have to rely on it, cos obviously you know nothing lasts forever and so forth and so on but accepting the love of your family and the people who love you it’s difficult but worth doing even if…there’s a good chance that they will never let you down but even if they let you down they do love you and give them the chance to let you down be strong enough because of their love that if they let you down that you don’t fall apart. Anyway, just a thought.”
Friday, early morning: I went out to kiss my wife goodbye as she had an early start with possible anxiety problems on the way and found my bike had been stolen.
Late morning I’m crying watching a film about our consumption of meat wondering if I’m weak because I’m still alive.
So, in honour of Michael for staying alive and trying to be the best he could be I’m sharing my thoughts and remembering him as an inspiration to be the best I can.
Here is a poem I performed at Michael’s album launch and CALM fundraiser.
Suicide is always an option
Death becomes me; she calls me to her arms
Says she will devour me with her deliciously fatal charms
She doesn’t haunt me, not a spectre in the night
More a…beckoning to come into her light
Her hints are clear, cheeky and still dark
Death entices me like the early morning lark
Sweet songs she offers to lull me off to sleep
Perfect death, seems warm and deadly deep
Life lingers, while she springs up to be my maid
Reminding me of the decisions I’ve already made
Pointing out the reasons why I should lie down by her side
Telling me that there are things I haven’t tried
Offering me sanctuary from the ordinary pain
Showing me the hearts that I’ve already slain
Pictures of kisses, beautiful on their own
Orgasms’ peaks brought out in a growling moan
Soft caresses, delicate and long
Powerful visions, powerful yet wrong
‘Trust me.’ says the owner of the night
‘Do one thing, just do this one thing right
Give in, give up, and admit you’ll never change
No one will think it odd, none will think it strange
Many will not notice, some may clap their hands
You’ve been gone before, everyone understands
Life’s hard, let go, allow yourself to fall
Come to me, listen to my call
One step, one jump, a slice is all it takes
To wipe clean your slate, cover all mistakes
Give freedom to those about whom you say you care
Or you could tell the truth.’ She knows I wouldn’t dare
I love her voice and the reasons that she gives
She knows that in my heart her sweet surrender lives
She knows that for her I’ve saved the last dance
But I’ll keep giving myself…one last chance.
You were the only one of many clients Strummers Studios whom became a friend so quickly and who's kindness stretched way beyond the average man.
I'm immensely privileged to have worked along side you on your music we worked on together, your artistry and vision was unique and insightful.
I'm just so sorry I did not figure to know things were so unbearable for you and I wish I could have helped more at the time when we were close these past three to four months
the last time I remember seeing you was walking away from our local community music night a few blocks from where you lived.
You were so kind to let me stay at yours whilst you were on holiday.
That last moment summed you up completely - speaking to all the artists and buying the merchandise and supporting everyone who was involved in the event.
Rest In Peace my friend. I wish we could have got to know each other more. But may I say the last six months of knowing you has been an incredible pleasure and forever you will be remembered by all that you touched with your art your kindness and your passion on Holloway Road.
I'm sure you're smiling up there Mike
Take care buddy
Finally the astronaut soared into space. We will remember the bedroom boy who wouldn't let the lights go out. May your soul rest in peace Michael. Amen.
I can’t believe I have only just found out you are gone.
I feel so privileged to have shared 3 years with you while we were nurse training. You were a wonderful house and flat mate and I don’t think I’d have got through those 3 years without you.
Your gentle soul was beautiful.
You made me laugh and kept me going when times were tough.
Your on the spot singing and guitar playing brought joy to us daily.
I wish you’d told me how you were feeling. I would have got to you in a heartbeat.
Rest in Peace sweet, beautiful Mike. Will remember you always xxxx
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